Pagini

The day when I died


That was the day that I died.
The day the white wolf told me he was going to die.
He told me there was no hope for him, but that I shouldn't be afraid.
I cried and I cried and I cried.

All on the inside.
When he lay down and died, the Black Wolf came and ate him alive.
Tore open his chest and went for the heart.
The spark.
The qi.
The essence of life.

Tore out his belly and took out the guts.
The shine.
The essence of living.

With a swoosh of the tail she went straight for the eyes.
Pierced them with the scorpion-like stinger at the end of its tail.
So swift, so clean, she took them out before the venom could reach the brain and numb it.
Turned them in ruby-colored diamonds and swallowed them whole.

--

I died with the White Wolf that day.
I died by the Black Wolf that night.

--

The next day I was surprised to wake up to the licking of a wolf cub.
All white, toes to the ears.
White tongue, white eyes, yet kind and gentle and serene. And curious as all newborns are.
So playful it went to its mother and licked her face and her ears.
And the blood off her snout.

--

The last day I called for him. It was no longer a cub, but had already grown into a pup.
Came to me but called on me to follow.
Took me through mountains and valleys and deserts and cold.
Right to the place where his father had died eons ago.

His mother arrived just in time to see it look at his father's corpse.
And killed him with a powerful bite. 
Right through the spine, close to the head.
Clean cut, no blood to be spilled. 


How dared he be white as his father.
How dared he.

She was not going to let him live to become her opponent.
Her mate.
Her counterpart.
Her eyes turned pearl white, then green, her hairs translucent.
Her time has come. 
The age of Ragnarok. 
The Time of the Apocalypse.
Good doesn't always prevail.


--

The Bear-Shaman stood silent at the foot of the hill, seated directly on the ground.
S/He could sense the movement of the Earth. The Mutable Earth.
The trembling in the air, before the movement.
His/Her dark red skin around the eyes seemed even darker in the twilight.
The air surrounding him/her started to glow an ethereal green light.
S/He started the low chant of healing.
'The time has come. It is beginning.'
I see the light in you
As you see the light in me

The marks from the dragon's claws started to glow, since they were not yet fully healed, like the older ones.
A low humming, almost imperceptible to the ear. But touching, rearranging atoms and molecules.
No healing this time.
I see the light in you
As you see the light in me

Just rearranging the cosmic net, both dark and light energy.
The energy of creation, the energy of destruction.
Miniature nuclear bombs going off.

I see the light in you
As you see the light in me
You honour me as I honour you.


--

She dismounted slowly from her Beast. She wanted to take a last look around the now familiar mountain. The dragon shaped into the Earth. 
The last look over the crevices, over the peaks of the volcano. The smooth slopes of one side, the irregular fractal-like shapes of the other. 
She felt she had failed her calling. She felt she had failed to be a dragon breeder. Yet part of her kept saying it was supposed to be like that. She felt it was bad, but things have to be bad so that they become better.
She knew about 'bad'. 
She knew the power was inside her to remold everything. Even The Black Wolf.
The landslide. 
She closed her eyes and let herself go.
She let the torrent of life and death tear everything apart.

Then, she sent the FIRE to purge it all...



Do you have what it takes?
Do you have what it takes to FOLLOW THE BLACK WOLF?


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April Fools

Horoscope:
A restless, unsettled feeling sets in today, as someone or something challenges your expectations.
The sun-Mercury conjunction on April 1 sets your intuition free.

Sometimes accepting is the best way to give. Be gracious and grateful.
Challenging days: 4, 20.

Three of Swords.
Life brings heartache and sorrow in many forms, and when our heart is breaking it can feel like our whole world is falling apart. 
If you're in a relationship and uncertain of how your partner feels about you, or their actions make you feel insecure and anxious, the 3 of Swords is a warning of impending heartache. It may be wise to let go and move on rather than hoping things will get better. 
If you are already in the midst of heartache, then the 3 of Swords is saying that healing is under way and happier times lay ahead. You may need to consciously choose to grieve for any loss, so your healing process can begin. Perhaps counseling or esoteric healing modalities may work for you.

Moon square Natal Sun / 4th April
Moon conjunct Natal Uranus / 4th April
Mars inconjunct Natal Venus / 4th-12th April
Uranus trine Natal Sun / 26th April 2018 - 29th April 2019

Forecast:
Aries New Moon / 15th April
It's time to clarify what we want to create and take inspired action toward our dreams. Though every New Moon brings an opportunity for rebirth and renewal, this one is supercharged. Not only is it the first New Moon of the astrological new year, it's also conjunct Uranus, planet of revolution, freedom and sudden change.
Scorpio Full Moon / 29th April
The Full Moon reveals what we need to release so that we can bring our ambitious dreams to fruition. Scorpio represents the phase in the creative process that looks more like destruction, but ultimately serves new life.
Saturn retrograde in Capricorn / 17th April - 6th September
Saturn is the Lord of Karma. Retrograde motion is a time when karma is sorted out. Therefore, Saturn retrograde is a double dose of karma. 
Pluto retrograde in Capricorn / 22nd April - 30th September
When Pluto goes retrograde it is good to reflect on how we are doing with change and transformation. Transiting Pluto retrograde is a time of reflection about power and control in your life. This is not a time for power tripping, but a time for elimination.


Fangs of the Black Wolf



The Black Wolf is becoming hungrier.

I've given it my arm to chew upon.

How much more until it devours me?

How much longer until it becomes the Elephant in the Room?


Untitled


We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
[...]
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
[...]
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
[...]
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
[...]


Dedication / Feb 2018 Addiction